The dog expresses gratitude as the soldier rescues its puppy from the rubble, and it becomes a regular companion in his backpack.

It sounded like a frantic cry for help but, as bomb disposal professionals, we knew better than to rush to the rescue because having a child scream was a frequent ISIS technique to lead you into a booby trap.

This was February 2018, only four months after the U.S.-led coalition had liberated Raqqa from ISIS and evidence of their wickedness could still be found in the thousands of IEDs (Improvised Explosive Devices) they had hidden in seemingly every building and crevice.

A former soldier with the Royal Engineers, I’d joined a squad recruited to clear those IEDs and we were at the end of a long and tiring day when we heard that cry.

Checking our surrounds for tripwires and motion detectors as we went, it took us a bit to work out that it was coming from behind a big concrete pedestal which we pulled up to uncover not a Syrian child but a small and very frightened Chihuahua.

Surrounded by the bodies of three other pups and one enormous dog, likely his mother, he was the lone survivor of the horrible nightmare that had unfolded around him, but he seemed reasonably uninjured. ‘Relatively’ being the crucial term.

Having been a soldier for most of my adult life, I’ve seen the horrible repercussions of war. Traveling into Raqqa each day, we’d see miles of homes riddled with bullet holes, mass graves and the bodies of youngsters who’d taken one wrong step and paid the ultimate price.

War is inexorable, and this trembling puppy was born in the bowels of the beast.

He was white all over, save for dark ears and splotches of black and brown on his small, round head, and I could see a layer of dust vibrating on the surface of his fur. ‘I’m terrified, too,’ I said to him and I meant it.

When I was five, I was attacked by my neighbour’s mean old Rhodesian Ridgeback so I really was afraid of this tiny critter.

Putting on extra-thick battle gloves, I passed him a biscuit with my medical clamps. After some thought, he took a tiny nibble and, as he did so, I patted him lightly, my hands still shielded by Army-grade gloves.

‘Who’s a good boy, Barry?’ I said excitedly, at which my whole crew fell into fits of laughing. I’m a very big boy, with a bushy beard and tattoos all over, so they didn’t expect my fluency in baby speak. All too soon it was time to head back to our camp an hour west of Raqqa and I could see that Barry was still too afraid to be picked up, so I left him with a biscuit and some water.

‘I’ll see you tomorrow, Barry,’ I replied, wanting it to be true so hard because I recognized that this was no ordinary dog.

Seeing Barry had made me feel hopeful for the first time since leaving the Army in the summer of 2014, following seven years which had included two rigorous tours in Afghanistan.

Back home in Essex, I would sometimes cry thinking about the horrors I’d seen, such as the disfigured corpse of a fellow soldier kidnapped and mercilessly tortured by the Taliban.

Yet while I now know that I was suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), at the time it felt I just couldn’t cope with the realities of civilian life, in which one thing seemed to come on top of another.

I was already trying to make a living as a personal trainer when my girlfriend had a miscarriage. Discovering she was pregnant had been the finest moment of my life and, although I tried my best to be there for her when she lost the baby, I felt like a hand grenade about to blow and I started drinking heavily. Finally we separated up and, having nowhere to go except my parents, I ended up sleeping in my van to stop them noticing the state I was in.

The only time I felt like myself again was in October 2017 when I attended to the funeral of a friend killed clearing IEDs in Syria.

Back home, people considered me as a bit of a failure but my former coworkers simply knew me as Sean the soldier.

I rather loved being that person and so, when I was asked to take my friend’s position in the Syrian team, I needed little persuasion.

I arrived in January 2018 and it was a month later that I met Barry. The day after we’d first found him, I returned to the rubble of the school and felt sad when there was no sign of him.

As we prepared to drive back to base, I told myself that everything was fine, that I barely knew him, and that I had other priorities, but I lighted up when I heard one of the Syrians I worked with shouting: ‘Barry! Barry! Barry!’

He’d buried himself somewhere to escape the cold night winds and he must have wondered who this geezer was who wouldn’t leave him alone. I was a proper stalker.

I had to take a leap of faith, if he was ever to take one on me.

Despite my better judgment, I stretched my hand — gloveless and bare — and lightly caressed his head. I liked touching him, it felt right, but only after another two days of such visits did he appear sure enough of me that I could take him back to our headquarters.

When I held him in my arms for the first time, he looked puzzled, as if to say: ‘What is this man doing?’, but as I looked down at him I knew that he was my little boy and I was his dad. He snored loudly on the ride back to base. I doubt he’d had a genuinely calm night’s slumber since his birth and now he felt it was safe to get some shut-eye, knowing I was there to protect him.

Back at camp, I carried him into my room, lay him on my comfortable duvet and left him to snore a little longer.

When he woke up, I moved to kiss him and found myself reeling.

He’d obviously never had a shower before and he didn’t want one now, as became clear when I placed him in a sink with a moving tap resembling a miniature shower head.

His legs splayed in all ways to avoid slipping into what he perceived as a death-trap, but he was super-fluffy afterwards and it was as I investigated him for bites or rashes that I found out that Barry wasn’t a boy.

It was too late for a new name now so I just changed it to Barrie. Issue fixed.

That night, I took Barrie to the pub where she soon found several volunteers to be her ‘other dad’, including my mate Digger, a rough Scotsman with a sensitive side to him. To welcome Barrie, he’d built her a small teddy bear from some rope and a pair of old pants, along with a collar and a military harness with her name embroidered onto it.

Digger had rescued a few of dogs from Afghanistan with a charity called War Paws and — since I already knew I wanted Barrie to come home with me — I set up an internet fundraising page to gather the £4,500 which they told it would cost to get her back to England.

For the main photo, I put my military vest on the ground alongside my weapon and placed Barrie inside it, with her head and paws peeking out of the top.

She looked so cute that within 24 hours we had raised almost £1,000. While we waited for additional money to come in, she regularly came to work with me.

During our drives into Raqqa she’d rest her head between the two front seats of our SUV, watching the world go by.

She raised everyone’s spirits, especially at tough times like the day a Syrian Defence Force soldier called Mohammed was murdered by an IED. That night, I rinsed his blood from my body in the shower block and returned to my bedroom where Barrie had only one thought on her mind: cuddling.

‘Today was difficult, Barrie,’ I told her, as she lay upside down on her back, paws lifted as if pleading to be held. Holding her tiny body in my arms, I felt the weight of the world lift off my shoulders.

Every morning she woke me by sitting on my face and anytime I was writing up my paperwork, she’d check my computer mouse, squaring up, ready to pounce.

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